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Kapuso actor Matt Lozano opened up about an important and defining moment in his life on the February 4 episode of GTV's cooking talk show Lutong Bahay with Mikee Quintos, Chef Ylyt, and his mom Elaine Lozano.

While sharing a hearty meal, Mikee asked Matt about his experience in battling depression and what ultimately led to his episode.

“Nagkasabay-sabay kasi 'yung time na 'yun, nasa… that time, I was the winner of [a singing competition], four months straight, may mga prod kami 'tapos, biglang nawala,” Matt told Mikee.

Mikee followed-up, “Ah, na-affect ka nun?”

“Yes,” Matt answered. “Pumupunta kami sa studio, nandoon kami 'tapos waiting, 'tapos hindi na kami nakukunan. 'Tapos, nalungkot ako noon. Iyon na 'yun. Nagkalaman na ako, medyo chubby-chubby.”

According to Matt, he kept auditioning for shows and projects, but all of them would reject him.

“Magulo. Sobrang gulo ng utak ko noon. Feeling ko walang nag-su-support sa akin. Feeling ko… basta nag-ibang tao ako. Basta one time, parang gusto ko na lang tapusin lahat,” he added.

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But one moment changed everything for Matt.

“I was driving a hundred kilometers per hour sa Congressional Ave. Lasing na lasing ako noon. Sobrang nasa darkest [moment] ako noon. 'Tapos, habang nasa Congressional Ave. ako, bigla na lang nag-pop sa head ko na 'Ay, may simbahan doon, ah,' stop [then] u-turn [ako].”

Matt said he laid all his emotions at church, even though he had to stay outside because it was late at night.

“Umiyak ako, 'tapos nagdadasal ako, nag-so-sorry ako na bakit ganito 'yung iniisip ko. Ang nangyayari, bakit ko tatapusin 'yung something great na binigay sa akin. Ganoon talaga, hanggang sa nakatulog ako doon sa kotse,” Matt told Lutong Bahay.

“Noong nakauwi ako the next day, tinanong ko si God, sabi ko, 'Bakit mo sakin binigay 'tong talento na 'to kung sasayangin ko lang?' So ngayon, ang ginawa ko, walang kukuha sa akin sa showbiz? No problem! Kinuha ko gitara ko…”

With everything he has been through, Matt Lozano shared an important lesson he holds on to until this day.

“Siguro 'yung nagsimula akong mahalin 'yung kung ano talaga 'yung totoong ako di ba? Kumbaga, parang kung hindi mo tatanggapin ikaw kung ano ka, kung sino ka, ano ang katawan mo, kung hindi mo i-a-accept 'yung sarili mo…” said Matt.

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