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AZ Martinez agrees to the observation of many Pinoy Big Brother Celebrity Collab Edition viewers, that she was “iyakin.”

The Kapuso housemates laughed when she mentioned about her viral memes, mostly showing her crying moments inside Bahay ni Kuya.

“Oh my, God! Hindi ko kayang panoorin, nagki-cringe ako. Oh my, God! Bakit ganun ako umiyak?! Ang pangit kong umiyak! Lagi akong nasa dining table, lumuluhod, eksena si ate! Charing! Ang arte ko,” AZ said with a laugh during the press conference organized for her by Skin Care Depot, the brand she now endorses, held on August 12.

GMANetwork.com then asked AZ if she really was a crybaby.

She answered, “Nagulat ako sa loob ng bahay. Kasi, hindi po talaga ako umiiyak sa labas. Like, before coming inside PBB, kahit pagalitan ako ng mom ko, hindi ako umiiyak. Ang tigas-tigas ko, gumaganun lang ako sa kanya.

“Pero doon sa loob, ang bilis kong umiyak. I think because mas in-touch kami with our emotions, kami-kami lang ang nandun, and all we do is talk about ourselves.”

AZ believes these moments have been key in letting the public see who she truly is.

“Doon ko in-allow 'yung sarili ko to be open sa totoong nararamdaman, sa totoong iniisip. Kasi, outside of the house, before, lagi ko na lang tinatakbuhan 'yun,” she said.

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AZ also shared how her PBB stint helped her overcome insecurities and self-doubt.

The 22-year-old actress related to the media, “Bago ako pumasok sa PBB, I've shared this a lot of times inside the house and even sa audition ko sa PBB, before coming in, I was very self-conscious, insecure talaga ako. Grabe talaga ako mag-overthink, I always looked down on myself. Wala akong tiwala sa sarili ko.”

She continued, “Pero now, after PBB, after ng mga pinagdaanan ko sa Bahay ni Kuya, after ng mga nakilala ko doon, because of their support, love, and friendship na nabuo namin--I've started to have more love for myself. I've started to see more of what I can do, especially sa mga challenges ni Kuya, nakita ko na, 'Oh my God, kaya ko pala 'to. May nagagawa rin pala ako. Bakit ganito 'yung naiisip ko sa sarili ko.'

“So, I had a lot of realizations inside the house hanggang sa ayun, nadala ko na siya up until dito sa outside world.

“Before, di ba, overthinker ako? Ngayon, wala na akong masyadong iniisip. Sobrang at peace na talaga ako ngayon. Sobrang present ako with what happening, full of peace na talaga 'yung utak ko ngayon.”

Another important lesson she learned inside Bahay ni Kuya was “to stay present.”

AZ explained, “Kasi, sa PBB, lagi akong distracted. I mean, 'yung mga things na iniisip ko o things na I couldn't control or out of my control, lagi akong nawawala dahil dun. Pero when I started to learn to be more present, to be more aware, to just enjoy and be in the moment, doon na ako masaya. Doon na ako naka-settle in talaga. Doon ko na talaga naipakita kung ano ang kaya kong gawin.”

AZ proudly shares that after conquering all the challenges she faced, she's now stronger and prepared for more.

So, to her previous self, AZ would want to tell her, “It's okay na ganyan ang pinagdadaanan mo ngayon. I understand na ganyan ang iniisip. Pero I wish you didn't dwell on it too much.

“For me, it's okay kasi you'll learn from it hanggang sa kung nasaan na ako ngayon. You'll learn from it talaga. Parang there's so much life pa and there's so much people who's gonna help you and support you.

“So, trust lang the process. Trust in God. Huwag kang magmadali ang know na better things are coming.”