“I thought something was wrong with me…” Geneva Cruz reflects on getting her nose altered at a young age.
Former actress/singer Geneva Cruz is coming to terms with how she looks as she gets older and wiser.
This is what she revealed on an Instagram post as she shares her learnings from going under the knife at a young age.
Growing up, Geneva said she always believed that she was beautiful in her own way.
“I grew up confident in my own skin. I never lacked suitors, so I thought, 'Hey! My nose is pretty wide, but it is alright.'” she said.
This, however, took a turn when she started making movies and was told that her nose was “too big” for the movie screen that led her to have her nose altered at 16 years old.
The actress confessed, “I thought something was wrong with me, and I carried that for many years kahit iba na ilong ko.
“Trolls loved to hurt me coz I was timid; they didn't know how else they could hurt me, so they made my old nose a target.”
She continued, “They even said things like I looked like Melai Cantiveros daw when I was in 'Smokey Mountain,' and I was like, 'WTF is wrong with looking like her? I think she's pretty.'
“Some would even say she looks better than me 'cause gawa ang ilong ko and at least sa kanya hindi.”
Geneva added, “I just couldn't win w/ them... as if it was my decision to touch my nose.”
Despite the negativity she received, Geneva said this allowed her to become stronger and cultivate what matters the most-- her intellect.
She said, “Because I was bullied so much in show business growing up, it turned me into a stronger person.
“Kaya kung puro satsat ka lang pero wala kang talino, don't even bother trying to make me feel bad with your senseless noise kasi ibabalik ko lang din naman sa'yo 'yung ginagawa mo.”
The 44-year-old then lent a piece of advice to those who are thinking of going under the knife soon.
“Wala kayong kailangang baguhin sa mukha ninyo, dahil maganda na kayo kahit ano pa ang sabihin nila,” she said.
“Pero wala ring masama kung may gusto kayong baguhin, basta ito ay talagang kagustuhan ninyo at hindi ng ibang tao.”
Geneva continued, “What I know now is that when we derive our worth from the relationships we have in our lives -- romantic, social circle, work -- we give away our power and become dependent upon external validation, and when that's taken away, our sense of value and identity goes with it.