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Binalikan ni Nic Chien ang araw nang mag-come out sa inang si Lea Salonga.

Sa kanyang pagbisita sa Fast Talk with Boy Abunda noong Biyernes, March 20, ikinuwento ni Nic kung paano siya sinuportahan ng kanyang ina sa tunay niyang pagkatao.

"The morning of maybe 2021, but she was on the tour in the States. The night before, I had realized that I was trans. I went up to her in the morning, 'Mama, I think I'm transgender. I'm a trans…'

"And then she was like, 'Okay. Let's take a step back. You're very young. Let's not put any immediate labels right now. Because you never know, right? You could be non-binary. You could be whatever.'

“And I ended up going on this journey from non-binary, gender fluid, so mag-sweep, you know. And then to gender fluid, pero prefer ko ang panlalaki, to just panlalaki. So it really, like, full circle talaga. I think no matter how much you try to deny who you are, you're gonna have to come back to it at some point.”

Ayon kay Nic, may kaunting "resistance" ang kanyang ina nang mag-come out siya bilang transgender.

"But I remember, I think she was a little bit... Like, there was a little bit of resistance, I think. Because, syempre naman as a parent, you don't want your child to go through hardship, right? And, I think she knew that if I went down this road, maraming talaga hardship.

"Pero there was a night when... And we were already discussing about taking testosterone, pero we agreed after Into The Woods kasi she didn't want my voice to change too much when I was singing," kuwento ni Nic.

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Inamin din niya na nagkaroon siya ng "breakdown" dahil kahit na anong gawin niya ay hindi siya makikita sa kung sino talaga siya.

"And I had a breakdown. I'm trying to avoid saying this, mag-ta-tantrum... I wanted to die because I was... when you look in the mirror, and you see yourself and you're like, I can't just take these boobs off. I have to go through all this stuff, and this is not anywhere close to now.

"No matter what I'll do, I won't be able to be seen for who I really am. I won't be able to be with certain people because they won't be attracted to the outside when it's the inside is what matters. And the inside can't come out because of all these semantics of surgery and all these hormones, which I'm very grateful for now."

Sinabi niya ang nararamdamang ito sa kanyang ina at nagdesisyong mag-undergo ng top surgery.

"But I just remember, I was like, 'Mama, I can't do this anymore. I can't wait anymore.' She held me and she was like, 'Okay, then we'll do it, you know, when do you want to do it? We'll do it before Into The Woods.

“And I think that was the best reaction that she could have had. Like, talaga, just like, you know, okay. But the top surgery, you have to wait because of your recovery and school. And I was like, okay. But hormones, okay, we'll do that because if you can't wait, it's fine.”

Setyembre noong nakaraang taon nang sumailalim si Nic sa top surgery, sa suporta na rin ng kanyang ina.

Panoorin ang buong interview ni Nic Chien sa Fast Talk with Boy Abunda rito: