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It's been almost 20 days since TJ Cruz, son of actors Tirso and Lyn and the couple is still coping amid their family's loss.

Social media has become an outlet for Tirso and Lyn as they continue to miss TJ.

Recently, Lyn has shared an intimate moment she had with her son not long before TJ breathed his last.

READ: Lyn Cruz pens poem for son TJ

She wrote: "On the day that he left to be with the Lord, I was still hoping and asking the Lord for a miracle. But since his BP was already going down and having a hard time breathing, in my thoughts, "Am I selfish, am I only thinking of myself? What about my son? He is already having a hard time?"

"One of his nurses told me, "Ma'am, lumalaban pa po si Sir TJ, pero bumababa na ang BP n'ya and heart rate and then tataas ng kaunti, pero hirap na siya." And I can feel God's presence during that time. So I raised my hands and said, "Okay, Lord, I surrender my son to you. If You want him to be with You already, it's okay with me na. Thank you for lending him to us for 37 years."

LOOK: The beautiful life of Tirso Cruz III's late son, TJ Cruz

"And I whispered to my son, "Teej, you told us you will fight, ang nag-usap tayo before, taht we will be with you through this battle. You fought a good fight anak, and I congratulate you for that. But if hirap ka na, and you are tired already as you told me the other day, it is okay. I will be okay. Huwag mo na ako isipin because Mama is going to be okay. I want you to be okay too. If you see the light, go to the light, don't look back anymore, coz we will be okay. Go to the light now and Jesus is there waiting for you. I love you and I will miss you."

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I came across this pic today in my FB memories and I posted this 2 years ago and I am posting it again today. I took this photo (pls swipe), December 8, 2016. Little did I know that this pic makes sense today, as I remember my son TJ's last moments with us. On the day that he left to be with the Lord, I was still hoping and asking the Lord for a miracle. But since his BP was already going down and having a hard time breathing, in my thoughts, “am I selfish, am I only thinking of my myself? What about my son? He is already having a hard time?” One of his nurses told me, “Mam lumalaban pa po si Sir TJ, pero bumababa na ang BP nya and heart rate and then tataas ng kaunti, pero hirap na sya.” And I can feel God's presence during that time. So I raised my hands and said, “okay Lord, I surrender my son to you. If You want him to be with You already, it's okay with me na. Thank you for lending him to us for 37 years.” And I whispered to my son, “Teej, you told us you will fight, and nag-usap tayo before, that we will be with you through this battle. You fought a good fight anak, and I congratulate you for that. But if hirap ka na, and you are tired already as you told me the other day, it is okay. I will be okay. Huwag mo na ako isipin because Mama is going to be okay. I want you to be okay too. If you see the light, go to the light, don't look back anymore, coz we will all be okay. Go to the light now and Jesus is there waiting for you. I love you and I will miss you.” Not long after, he breathed his last. It was hard letting go. But as you surrender everything to God, the comfort is there...we know that my son is in a better place now...full of life...no more pain...no more tears...no more worries...no more hardships...no more fears...no more sickness...thank you Lord for your promise of eternal life... 1 John 1:5 God is light. In Him, there is no darkness at all. (By the way, a friend noticed that there is a letter E in the clouds. E is for Erlinda, and TJ calls me Erlinda when he tells stories about me to his friends. Coincidence?) I love you Teej! My baba and my 'ga! ('ga is for pangga). I miss you! #tjcruz #teejaycruz @spikeforhope 12-8-2018

A post shared by lynncruz525 (@lynncruz525) on Dec 7, 2018 at 4:44pm PST

In a separate entry, Lyn also shared with her followers a dream where she saw TJ.

"He looked so healthy and so handsome...more handsome than he was here on earth..."

She ended her post with a bible verse from Psalm 80:19, that is also a prayer, "Lord God All-Powerful, make us strong again! Smile on us and save us."

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Saw my son TJ early this morning in a dream and he was in a position almost what you see in the first pic, wearing white shirt and black and white shorts, looking at me and giving me a smile, a beautiful smile just like what you see in the 2nd and 3rd picture...or maybe even more beautiful smile, contented, happy, victorious, winner smile that only the Lord can give. He looked so healthy and so handsome...more handsome than he was here on earth! #thankyouLord #thankyouJesus Thank you for answering my prayer...kahit sa panaginip man lang makita ko ang aking anak...and may bonus pang ngiti...I love you Lord! Psalm 80:19- Lord God All-Powerful, make us strong again! Smile on us and save us. I love you and miss you TJ! 12-9-2018

A post shared by lynncruz525 (@lynncruz525) on Dec 8, 2018 at 5:49pm PST