No Longer On Her Own
Rachelle had to wait for almost a year after her Miss Saigon auditions.
That prolonged response from the people behind Miss Saigon caused her to think that she didn’t pass the auditions.
The Kapuso singer eventually received word from the producers. She didn’t get the lead role of Kim which she wanted. Instead she was offered to play the character of Gigi Van Tranh, a hard-bitten stripper.
Her conservative upbringing held her back from seizing the opportunity right away.
She contemplates about portraying a prostitute, “For an hour, nakatulala lang ako in front of my laptop kasi sabi ko, ‘Eto ba ’yun, ang aking pinapangarap?’”
She then acknowledged it might be the answer to her prayers. After all, she was asking for something new, a challenge in her then decade-long career as a singer.
When Rachelle decided to take the offer, she was more than prepared to leave her life in Manila, even if it meant being forgotten by the Filipino audience.
She says, “Hanggang sa dumating ’yung araw na merong peace akong naramdaman na I have to do it. I have to take the risk, na yes it’s gonna be hard to be away from the family, I’m so used to having my mom around, you know, my family around me. Pero ramdam ko talaga na kailangan ko umalis.”
To say that a career in Broadway and West End looked glamorous is to see the world through rose-colored glasses.
She concedes, “I guess it’s hard to really take that out of the picture if you grew up hearing people telling you you’re not good enough or you’re ugly, like all the negative stuff. So naging part ng sistema ko ’yun talaga. And even if I know that it’s not right, ang hirap burahin.
“So ’yun nga, nung second show ng Les Miserables, I was really messing up and nasabi ko, ‘Siguro nga talaga hindi para sa akin ’to. Siguro talaga I’m not good enough, I’m not enough. Lahat ng doubts talaga bumabalik even if you know it’s wrong.”
Rachelle was not accustomed to living alone, away from the comforts of home and familiarity. Her first year was tough; she admitted she was close to defaulting on her contract.