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Former actress-turned-vlogger Michelle Madrigal got candid in her latest YouTube content, where she talked about some of her traumas while she was still active in the show business.

Michelle shared that she set foot in the world of showbiz at age 15, and by doing so, she was pushed to act more and think maturely as she was already starting to make a name for herself at a very young age.

Source: mitch_madrigal (Instagram)

“At that time I felt like I had to tumanda or mag-mature right away because of my experiences when I was younger. So honestly, I think something really really bad happened when I was kid, and I think nadala ko 'yung emotions, trauma, and 'yung anxiety all the way hanggang sa teenager ako,” she said.

Since she could not open up about her feelings and these grievances have usually been ignored over for a long time due to mental health stigma, she shared that she coped up with the pain through rebellion.

“I think the only way for me to show that emotion kung ano talaga 'yung na-feel ko because I couldn't talk to everybody and especially in the Philippines na parang people look down on you or they don't really open up about certain things and that's the culture that we have.

“I think the way that I coped up with it was through rebellion. Talagang I was such a rebellious kid growing up. Teenage years ko I wasn't taking my artista life seriously. I was really partying almost every single night. As in self-destructive talaga. Why? To numb the pain,” she revealed.

Aside from the pressure from her career, Michelle also revealed that she had a bad relationship with her mom, so she decided to leave home when she was only 16 years old.

“Because I wasn't able to express that growing up and I guess during my teenage years I was finding ways and at the same time I was having trouble with my parents, my mom specifically. Hindi talaga kami magkasundo before.

“The reason why I left the house as early as 16 years old. I've been providing for myself since when I was 16. I think dinala ko 'yun do'n,” she continued.

Source: mitch_madrigal (Instagram)

The US-based fitness coach then shared her experiences in showbiz that she said fueled her anxiety and depression.

“Obviously, mga personal issues mo you don't talk about it sa showbiz. People don't care. They just want you to do your job, to act, work every single day, work hard. They praise you for working hard, but they never really ask how you're doing. Nobody would really ask in that type of industry.

“Even if you share with them, I don't think it's genuine. It's more so they just want a scoop. They just want things to put on the newspapers.

Getting emotional, Michelle said, “I guess dealing with that growing up with no outlet, I was really lost. And I think at some point I was depressed I was always always drinking. I was never an alcoholic but every single night kahit pagod ako from work I would just drink because I don't wanna feel that pain.”

Source: Michelle Madrigal (YouTube)

Now that she has overcome her showbiz traumas, Michelle reminded everyone, especially those dealing with mental health problems, that it is okay to feel sad and that your feelings and emotions are valid.

“If you guys have been feeling depressed, stressed, or anxious lately, know that your feelings and your emotions are valid. Note that it is normal to feel both emotions and super important to take care of our mental health as it is to take care of our physical health,” she said.

Source: mitch_madrigal (Instagram)

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