Things Aren't Over... (I just wanna be free)

Things aren’t over… (I just wanna be free) By AL Diwallay In the deepest soul of my heart, is a burden I long to confess. I was so immature. I was blinded to realize that through the years, nothing has seemed to change.

I am still and will always be in denial of the reality proclaiming myself as a happy man. But the truth is, I am still a prisoner of the past, so scared to move on and terrified to go along. I have been like this for quite some time, forcing myself to believe that I am already a free man — free from sorrows and hatred. But somehow I was wrong. I was claiming that the glory is mine, that the victory must be celebrated. I was boastful and arrogant to speak out loud that I am, indeed, a happy man at last. But then I found myself again, sitting in the corner longing for her love and kisses, her smell and eyes, her looks, presence, and sense of humor. She’s just irresistible and hard to forget. Many times have I tried to fight this feeling, But I am still weak — weak as a newly born child, as if there is nothing I can do but to give up. Letting her win is all that I see and know. She would laugh. She will walk away and never come back. Damn, I’m crying again. Until someone said, AL!!!, alas-sais na! Gising na! Male-late ka na! Alarm clock mo, tumitilaok na naman! And then I realize Ouch, I am dreaming again. I could write a hundred of this, Or perhaps thousands. For once in a while, I am still dreaming about her. Promise... I have moved on, and have forgiven myself for loving her too much. But still, I am drowned by her love — every time I see her in my dreams. I just wanna be free — totally free. — GMA News AL Diwallay Ano ang kwento mo? Mga Kapuso, tuloy ang ating kwentuhan. Sana’y hindi kayo magsawa sa pagtangkilik sa ating pitak na ito. Habang may mga kababayan tayo sa abroad - pati ang kanilang mga kabiyak, anak, ina, ama o sinuman na kabahagi ng kanilang buhay - na nais magpaabot ng kanilang saloobin, mananatili po ang inyong Kwentong Kapuso. Katulad ng dati, hindi kami magsasawa na basahin ang inyong mga kwento - maigsi man o mahaba. Kahit na ang laman nito ay naglalabas ng inyong saloobin, walang mapagsabihan ng sikreto, o kaya naman nais magbigay ng inspirasyon, gustong magpayo, magsumbong, magpatawa o kahit nagpapalipas lang ng oras. Kaya hihintayin namin ang inyong mga email na maaari ninyong ipadala sa Pinoyabroad@gmanews.tv Sa inyo mga kababayan namin saan mang dako sa mundo, kami po'y saludo sa inyo. Kaya ilabas na ang iyong saloobin, ikuwento mo Kapuso!