Criselda Volks: Split with lover caused suicide try

Actress Criselda Volks finally revealed why she attempted to kill herself last month. In a taped interview with Startalk aired Saturday, Volks admitted she was broken-hearted at that time but not with estranged partner Cris Villanueva. “Hindi ko talaga masabi yung tutuo (dati). So ngayon, the real reason is when I was not with Cris, I met this person. Siya talaga yung sumalo sa akin sa depression ko (dati). Not only emotionally but financially. I was really down before financially, emotionally, spiritually lahat," she narrated. “I really fell in love with this person and we’ve been together for more than a year and the sad part about it, 'yng totoo, he is married." “At that time, we broke up and it really hurt me. So naisip ko twice in a row in a relationship was a little bit too much for me and I failed while I have always tried to do my best in everything," she said. On October 8, Criselda ingested liquid bleach and detergent. She was rushed to the hospital after her maid found her frothing in the mouth. But almost as soon as she arrived at the hospital, she refused medical treatment and signed a waiver, then went out and boarded a cab back home. Criselda had been depressed for two weeks, locking herself inside her room before she decided to end her life. But after the unsuccessful attempt, Volks had a change of heart. “Looking for a man in your life is not everything, it’s not everything. Real happiness para sa akin should come from within but I am getting there. Lahat ngayon inaayos ko lahat sa buhay ko," she said. She has also learned to accept that she has to live without Cris. “Masakit para sa akin masyado yung nangyari sa akin before, with me and Cris. So ngayon medyo pagod na pagod na rin ako magsalita o i-mention yung pangalan ni Cris kasi wala na e…matagal na kaming you know.. para sa akin maligaya na siguro siya sa buhay niya," she said. However, she admitted Cris’s absence as a father of her child still saddens her. “Nakakalungkot lang pag hinahanap siya ni Rafa, ng anak niya. So dumaan yung birthday niya, dumaan yung Christmas, kahit papaano ine-expect ko na dalawin man lang niya si Rafa, not for me anymore. I’m really not interested in seeing him anymore," she said. She said she understands Cris’s attitude toward her and their child. “Once he lets go and once he moves on wala na siyang pakialam. The last time we talked, malaki yung naging away namin dati, gusto niya akong makalimutan at kung kakalimutan niya ako kakalimutan niya na rin na nagkaroon kami ng anak," he said. With this, he asked Cris to sign the papers that would allow Criselda bring their son to the United States. “Isang pirma mo lang naman para sa kabutihan ng anak mo. Makasama man lang niya yung mga pinsan niya. Gusto ko naman makilala ni Rafa yung mga pinsan niya, yung mga relatives niya. Pag nakita ko siya (Cris) ‘yun ang sasabihin ko...sige na pirmahan mo naman …alam mo yun pinalaya na naman kita e," she said. - GMANews.TV